I'm on my way back to running again...

I've been having problems lately. Four weeks ago, I gained a half a pound. Three weeks ago, I gained a pound and a half. Both of those weeks, I was on the new PointsPlus plan with Weight Watchers--to the letter.

So I took a break.

For 2 weeks, I didn't track anything I ate. I didn't go hog wild, like I've done in the past, but I did eat what I wanted to.

I consistently gained about 3 pounds each week.

This past week, I was back on the PointsPlus plan and I lost almost 2 pounds.

Who knows what's going on. I don't know why it didn't work for me before but it did now, but I'll take it. Maybe it was because of the break. It's gonna be interesting to see how next week goes.

I finally went to the sports orthopedist for him to look at my knee that I injured about a year ago when I was training for the marathon. It ends up I really wrecked my knee cap. It's sitting crooked on my knee socket and it's all ground down and rough with chips of bone floating underneath it.

He first asked my why I would want to run. I almost got up and walked out. I thought, who is he to question why I would want to run. But I explained to him about how I was almost 300 pounds when I first started my weight loss journey and how I was deathly afraid of running. But then I overcame my fear and once I found out that I could run and it wouldn't kill me it SO empowered me. I don't want to live my life without running.

He understood and gave me some good advice. It ends up I need to strengthen my leg muscles more. He's referred me to a physical therapist and also given me some exercises to do to build up my thigh muscles.

He said I will be able to run again, after I get my legs in shape first. He gave me a knee brace to where when I start running again that'll keep my knee cap in place.

I can't wait to start running again. I miss it terribly. Has anyone else fell in love with running? Or anything else that has empowered you that you were afraid of before?

Hang in there kid... right?

I've been having a bit of a tough time lately. And by lately, I mean within the past couple of weeks.

Back up a little over a month ago when I gained over 8 pounds during Christmas. Why do I continue to do this to myself? Now, I'm sure it'll take me months to get those 8 lbs off. I was able to get 4 of those pounds off a couple of weeks later... Total fluke!

Then week before last, I decided to go all out and emerge myself in the new Weight Watchers PointsPlus system.

So... I gained a half a pound that week.

Then, I thought, okay, maybe that was a fluke so I gave it another shot...

Gained a full pound last week.

I have to say, I'm so proud of my food choices. I'm eating the most balanced, smart menus I've ever eaten in my life. I'm eating 5 fruits and/or veggies each day. I'm getting in my healthy oils (2 tsp of canola or evvo) each day. I'm having 2 milk servings a day (fat free of course). Nothing but whole grains and lean meats. Plenty--plenty--of water each day.

So what gives?

Why the continual gain?

I'm not under a lot of stress, at home or at work. I'm not at that particular time of the month. I'm not eating too much sodium. Very little processed foods, just the bread and cereal.

It's very frustrating!

I even took my tracker to my WW meeting last week and I completely stumped 2 of my leaders. Ricardo said that all our bodies are different and to hang in there.

Well, I am. I'm hanging in there. Been hangin' in there for almost 4 years, now. I'm not gonna give up. I've tried just about every trick in the book. I've tried not focusing on the numbers (which is why I've been gone for so long).

I just don't know.

But this is me "staying with it". It's the only thing I have left.

Blogging...

I need to start blogging again. I miss you guys and I've been going through a lot of things lately.

So...

I will start blogging again!

See you soon. :]

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