Well, I went biking this morning.
I can't believe I actually did it because today is a holiday and all. But I did. I told myself I was going to start biking on Monday, though when I told myself this, I forgot today was a holiday. Ugh. But I kept my word to myself. And boy was it rough!
OH MY GOSH WAS IT ROUGH!!!
It's been 2 weeks without serious exercise and my body was screaming at me. Sure, I walked a bunch when I was up in WV and I did walk once last week, but walking for me just doesn't count as serious exercise any more. I'll only burn 200-300 calories when I walk for an hour. That's kind of cool saying that, you know? I mean, a year ago, walking for an hour would kick my butt! I've really come a long way.
I still can't believe I've lost almost 90 pounds. I was only 2/10ths of a pound away from 90 pounds on my last weigh in, but this past weigh in put me 8/10ths of a pound away. Still, I'm getting close.
Bad news is that I'm up 5 pounds since weigh in.
I totally cheated yesterday. I can't believe I did that. That's the first time in a long time that I completely let it go all day. For breakfast, I had scrambled eggs (egg beaters) with cheddar cheese, 2 real sausage patties, "home fries" (new potatoes with onions and green peppers) and toast with real butter and real jelly. Then for a snack, I had about 10 or 12 Oreo cookies with a very tall glass of Reduced Fat milk. No, I get no brownie points for the reduced fat milk... it was a splurge. I haven't had reduced fat milk in over a year. It's the closest thing to real milk and it was so yummy and creamy. Then for dinner I had 4 slices of Pizza Hut Supreme pizza on thin and crispy crust and two slices of buttery garlic bread with extra mozzarella cheese gobbed on.
Oh, and did I mention that the night before (Sat night) had another big bowl of Oreo's with milk and then had probably two cups of "light" ice cream (which wasn't very light) topped with crumbled Oreo cookies (probably about 6 or 7 of them). It was an Oreo weekend. I haven't had an Oreo since before I started WW. I don't usually crave sweets, but I had a bad craving for Oreo's Saturday afternoon.
They're all gone now. Thank goodness!! Milk's gone, too.
I just wonder how many times I'm going to continue to sabotage myself?? I have the best of plans to stay on plan and eat healthy and be good but then it's like I completely lose my mind and can't stop eating whatever is in front of me or whatever kind of food pops into my head. Like those Oreo's... I didn't want to go out to the store to get them so when daughter called to say she was coming home from work, I asked her to get them for me. I shouldn't have done that.
I just get the thought of bad food in my head and then I can't stop until I've eaten it. The same thing happened with Pizza Hut... we got some coupons in the mail yesterday and it put that thought in my head and I couldn't stop thinking about it.
It's so hard to resist food when it means so much to me. I've had a lifetime of indulging and over eating and gorging myself until I am completely satisfied. That's a long time to build up a bad habit and then it's only been 16 months since I've been on WW so that's a short time to expect the habit to be broken. I'm sure I'll have to battle this for the rest of my life. It's bad. But that's what I've signed up for. If I want to be happy and healthy, I'll have to battle the food demons for as long as they'll stick around. It'll continue to be hard, but I just have to resign myself to that fact and push through.
Blogging helps me so much to get through this, you know? It helps me to put my thoughts out there and see them and then they become real and I can deal with them. And then the community of people who are so darn supportive is just amazing. I hear them say how I've helped them to overcome this or that or just helped them make the journey a little easier to get through, but it's really you guys who are helping me. I couldn't make it through this horrible journey without my blog and my blog-buddies. I know it. I know I would have given up a long time ago. Like I'd done so many times before on all the other diets I'd tried and failed at.
So here's to us.. Blogger. Thank you for helping me through this. Thank you for being there for me. And we'll keep trugging through this together and help each other through this. We will prevail.
Now... how do you lose 5 pounds in 5 days??? Stay tuned... I'm gonna do it!
Challenge Update! - Week Seven (updates in bold below)
"18 Pounds in 18 Weeks"
Bento Box Diet (sat WI) - gained 3 pounds las week
Katschi (tues WI) - lost 1.2 pounds last week
MaryFran (tues WI) - gained 5 pounds last week (I hated to type that in here, I'm so sorry, MaryFran)
Karyn (mon WI) - lost 4.4 pounds last week
Donna (mon WI) - lost .4 pounds last week
Spunkysuzi (sun WI) - Lost 1.4 pounds!!!
Cathy (fri WI) - Lost 6/10ths of a pound! Way to go!