Sunday, January 18, 2009

perseverance and a cupcake...

You know I completely forgot to show you guys what Audrey (a lady at my WW meeting) gave me yesterday. She knits and usually brings some knitting project to meeting with her. She knows I LOVE the cupcake so she knitted me a cupcake.

Isn't it just the cutest thing????!!!!

She's making me koala bear, now. She's so talented.

Thanks so much for your encouraging comments yesterday. I wondered, too, if it wasn't muscle gain, but I really don't think so. Because I haven't been in any pain whatsoever all week. No sore muscles or tired muscles. My legs don't feel heavier or anything. It's weird.

And you know, I don't really feel like I've gained or lost anything in months. My jeans are a little tight on me, but I think they always have been. I mean, I'm only 6 pounds heavier than the lowest I've ever been. And when I was at my lowest, I felt skinny, but I think it was my mind playing tricks on me. I was so psyched that I was that low, I felt like the skinniest person on the Earth.

And I don't really think that I'm supposed to be at 170. I really believe I'm supposed to be lower. I mean, I took a good hard look at my body yesterday. At the curves and bulges. And I really feel like I should be thinner. I mean, I know I'll never be skinny as a model or skinny as I used to be when I was in my 20s, but I do have a bunch of flab left. I just don't understand why it's so hard to break this 100 pound barrier. Maybe it's my mind that's messing with me and not my body.

I mean, get this, after my 4.8 pound loss last Saturday, you know what the first thing is I did? I went and got a pizza. Mind you, I only had 3 pieces and it was Pizza Hut's new whole grain crust Natural pizza, but it was still pizza. And of course, I can't go to Pizza Hut without getting their garlic bread smothered in mozzarella cheese. But I wonder if whenever I have a good loss that my mind falls back on rewarding myself with food.

I've gotta work past this. I know I've made great strides in the past few weeks. I'm really looking at food differently. I'm trying so hard to look at it as sustenance with the occasional appreciation for the food God has given us. I still have my moments, but for the most part, I'm making much smarter decisions on my food intake.

Another thing is before I went to WW, I weighed myself at home and I was 172.8. Then at WW, I was 174.2. Usually my scale is up to a pound lighter than WW, but this was almost a pound and a half more. I'm not saying their scales were inaccurate, but I just wonder if either their scale or my scale is getting it wrong. Sunday morning, I weighed myself at home again and I was still 172.8. So who knows.

I just know that I haven't indulged or splurged this weekend. I've written down everything I've eaten. And I can't wait to get out on the road again tomorrow morning to go running again.

I just gotta put the scale behind me and do my best. I'm not a number. Right?

One thing I need to work on this week is my water intake. That might have been some of it last week, too. I'll drink plenty of water while I'm exercising, but in between, I was kinda sparse. I know that makes a difference, too.



Dutch said...

That cupcake is so cute. At first I thought it was real. LOL I am looking at food a lot differently lately also. I seem to feel so much better when I eat whole grain, fruits and vegetables. When I belonged to WW I used to reward myself with food after I had a loss. I am still working on that. I have read a few other journals where they reward themselves with a book or dvd. I need to look at it that way. I have to stay away from pizza. It is one of my downfalls. Water is my favorite drink but the last few days I have been having a hard time getting it down. Well, have a great evening and keep up the good work.

Katschi (Karen) said...

I love the cupcake. Was that ever nice of her to make that for you!
Cara, have you ever taken your measurements? Would that be a better indicator of your progress perhaps?
I've read that it's water being retained by the muscles when we work out and if we don't drink enough our bodies will hold on to it. It's very difficult to add muscle that fast but the muscles do need water for self repair.
I read this in Bob Greene's book.
I wish I could wave a magic wand for you! It's got to be terribly frustrating to be plateauing like this.
More protein maybe? less carbs?
less calories?

Mel said...

You said:
"Maybe it's my mind that's messing with me and not my body."

positive thoughts beget positive outcomes..

the mind-body connection is powerful.. If we think down on ourselves about how we ate or what we did for exercise.. our minds think it must be so... and for some reason our body's hold on to the weight... even if we know we did everything we could to lose.

I wish i could point you to a good article about this. I only know because I study it as a singer..

basically.. think positive! ha

Rebecca said...

I love cupcakes too, I saw a tree ornament that looked very similar to yours this past Christmas. And no! You are not a number. You are doing great. :)

Donna B said...

The cupcake is sooooo cute! Can't wait to see the koala bear she is making for you.
Know where you are coming from as far as passing the "barrier". I feel like I have worked so hard the past several months, but the scale hasn't moved down that much. Haven't gained more than an pound or two back, but the same pounds! My barrier is breaking into "onderland"! I am going to keep plugging along, exercising daily and I know when my body is ready, I'll shed the rest fo the weight. Keep up the good work!

Scale Junkie said...

That cupcake is adorable. I looked at it quickly and told myself DONT LOOK AT IT out of fear I'd crave it and then I realized it was knitted LOL

I think Karen has the right idea about taking your measurements, you are at a stage in your weight loss where you could plateau for a while. Sometimes you have to mix things up a bit to get the scale moving.

For me its pretty easy to maintain but losing weight takes all of my focus.

Hang in there cupcake!

Felicia said...

Welcome to the Healthy You Challenge!

Best wishes to you!

Hanlie said...

Welcome to the HYC Challenge! You've done great so far and I wish you all the best with the remainder of you journey.