You know I completely forgot to show you guys what Audrey (a lady at my WW meeting) gave me yesterday. She knits and usually brings some knitting project to meeting with her. She knows I LOVE the cupcake so she knitted me a cupcake.
Isn't it just the cutest thing????!!!!
She's making me koala bear, now. She's so talented.
Thanks so much for your encouraging comments yesterday. I wondered, too, if it wasn't muscle gain, but I really don't think so. Because I haven't been in any pain whatsoever all week. No sore muscles or tired muscles. My legs don't feel heavier or anything. It's weird.
And you know, I don't really feel like I've gained or lost anything in months. My jeans are a little tight on me, but I think they always have been. I mean, I'm only 6 pounds heavier than the lowest I've ever been. And when I was at my lowest, I felt skinny, but I think it was my mind playing tricks on me. I was so psyched that I was that low, I felt like the skinniest person on the Earth.
And I don't really think that I'm supposed to be at 170. I really believe I'm supposed to be lower. I mean, I took a good hard look at my body yesterday. At the curves and bulges. And I really feel like I should be thinner. I mean, I know I'll never be skinny as a model or skinny as I used to be when I was in my 20s, but I do have a bunch of flab left. I just don't understand why it's so hard to break this 100 pound barrier. Maybe it's my mind that's messing with me and not my body.
I mean, get this, after my 4.8 pound loss last Saturday, you know what the first thing is I did? I went and got a pizza. Mind you, I only had 3 pieces and it was Pizza Hut's new whole grain crust Natural pizza, but it was still pizza. And of course, I can't go to Pizza Hut without getting their garlic bread smothered in mozzarella cheese. But I wonder if whenever I have a good loss that my mind falls back on rewarding myself with food.
I've gotta work past this. I know I've made great strides in the past few weeks. I'm really looking at food differently. I'm trying so hard to look at it as sustenance with the occasional appreciation for the food God has given us. I still have my moments, but for the most part, I'm making much smarter decisions on my food intake.
Another thing is before I went to WW, I weighed myself at home and I was 172.8. Then at WW, I was 174.2. Usually my scale is up to a pound lighter than WW, but this was almost a pound and a half more. I'm not saying their scales were inaccurate, but I just wonder if either their scale or my scale is getting it wrong. Sunday morning, I weighed myself at home again and I was still 172.8. So who knows.
I just know that I haven't indulged or splurged this weekend. I've written down everything I've eaten. And I can't wait to get out on the road again tomorrow morning to go running again.
I just gotta put the scale behind me and do my best. I'm not a number. Right?
One thing I need to work on this week is my water intake. That might have been some of it last week, too. I'll drink plenty of water while I'm exercising, but in between, I was kinda sparse. I know that makes a difference, too.