But the comment that struck me the most was from my WW leader, Ned. Check it out:
You are an inspiration to all of us in the meeting room every Saturday and you can always turn to our meeting for help whenever you might need it. Maybe it is time the meeting gave something to you this week in whatever form will help you the most. We are here for you no matter what so lean on us to help you get through this tough spell. Keep the faith!
Wasn't that sweet? But it didn't stop there. This morning in the WW meeting, he took a moment to specifically ask if there was anyone who wanted to share any struggles they've been going through lately. This is something I've never heard him do before. I knew he was talking about me. I just didn't feel comfortable airing my "negative" experiences like that. I just felt like I'd be a wet blanket if I started talking about my motivation problems.
But guess what, the topic of the meeting just happened to be goal setting and motivation. Can you believe it?! Exactly what I needed. I don't know if my leader did that on purpose or if it was a wonderful coincidence. He talked about how hard it is to find motivation sometimes and no matter how bad we might want to lose weight, sometimes the motivation just doesn't come. It was like he was talking just to me, although I think he was intentionally not looking at me so I wouldn't feel more uncomfortable.
He talked about how we can lean on each other and the meeting leaders to help us through the hard parts of our weight loss journey and how we're not alone when we can't find the motivation to continue on. He was saying how we're all a family and we all want each other to succeed and that if any of us are struggling for us to lean on each other to make it through.
I tell you, I started tearing up right in the middle of it all. He really spoke to my heart. It was exactly what I needed to hear.
I went up after class and gave him a big hug and told him thanks for helping me get my head back in the game.
Now, I'm not saying that was a miracle cure all, I'm still struggling with finding the motivation to eat right and exercise, but at least now I know I'm not in this alone and I have people who really care about me and want to help me however they can.
I mean you guys too! You guys help me so much by leaving me those encouraging comments. You have no idea how much I pour over every comment you leave. Even if it's a short note just to say you understand or you're proud of me. Every comment you leave inspires me to keep going.
So thanks, Ned. And thanks to you who are reading this blog and encouraging me to continue on. I still have a long way to go. I mean, I've only lost 2.5 pounds this past year and I still have to make it down to 145 as my ultimate goal.
Right now, I can be honest and tell you, I gained almost 10 pounds last week. (I cringed as I typed that.) I didn't want to admit that to anyone. I didn't weigh in this morning (took a no-weigh-in-pass). But I'll face the music next week. I'm not making any huge promises to myself about eating right or exercising. I'm just going to take this one day at a time. One baby step at a time and keep finding encouragement in what I've heard from you guys and keep going.
I'll find the motivation. It'll come. Heck, maybe I've already got it I just don't realize it yet. But I won't give up. I will make it to goal. And I will keep this weight off no matter whether I ever find motivation or not.
Thanks guys! I love you!!!