I don't know what's wrong with me, but I CAN'T find the motivation to want to lose weight.
I'm so disgusted at my size and I absolutely HATE how my fat rolls pooch out over top of my jeans like muffin tops with acne scares. I hate it when I run up the stairs at work and can feel my flab just flabbing away.
But I keep eating.
And not exercising.
What is wrong with me??
Why can't I snap out of this??
I thought after I'd come to the reality that I've only lost 2.5 pounds over the past 12 months, that would be the slap in the face I need to get me back on track. I mean, I've never, not for one week, stopped dieting. I still have perfect attendance at Weight Watchers. Sure, I've taken a few no-weigh-in passes this past year, but I've stayed on plan the majority of the time. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that I've sacrificed and "gone without" for a whole year and I'm basically back where I started. Why would anyone, in their right mind, do that??
It baffles the mind!!!
But here I sit with a full tummy of cheese coffee cake and still no exercise this week.
When am I ever going to find the motivation to lose weight again?
How am I ever going to find the motivation?
What is wrong with me?????