Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Who is that woman in the mirror...

So tonight's Biggest Loser was pretty good. I was so excited to see Nicole given a second chance. She has been my favorite from the beginning. When she came back the last time, she kicked butt on the challenge and ALMOST won. She showed so much strength and determination. I was so impressed. Then when she came back tonight after losing like 87 pounds, or something like that, I was thoroughly impressed. Way to go Nicole!

Then a horrible thing happened, she got voted off. I was so upset. But she said something so amazing after she got voted off that really stuck with me. She was talking about how she had walked past a mirror when she got to The Ranch and noticed for the first time how much weight she'd lost and how good she looked. Until then, she'd never allowed herself to really realize how her body had changed over the months. I mean, holy cow, she'd lost almost 90 pounds! But she was so focused on "losing" and being the "biggest loser" that she hadn't stopped to see the progress she'd made.

Then in the "after the loser" segment, it showed her in her size 24 wedding gown (before the show) and now in the size 12. It occurred to me that that is where I am right now. I started in a size 24 (well, actually I was in a 26/28) and now I'm in a size 12. I think I need to stop for a while and take a look at me now and stop focusing on the process. My mind is so focused on watching the scale to see how much I've lost or haven't lost. It's my measuring stick for success right now. I need to stop that and look in the mirror. To see what Nicole saw.

I've lost almost 100 pounds. But I need to let that number go and stop focusing in on it. I need to just look in the mirror at my progress and be happy there rather than on the scale.

So that's my goal, now, is to focus on the mirror. Focus on the mirror. Focus on the mirror.

The funniest thing happened today. In the middle of the morning, I jotted down a few things I needed to pick up at the store on my way home for lunch (so I wouldn't forget). So I grabbed my note when headed out for lunch and as I was walking down the hall, I looked down at the list and it made me chuckle. The only things on the list were healthy stuff. Bananas, granola bars, almond milk, lettuce and turkey. It was so completely unreal. I remember when my lists would include chips, soda, cookies, hamburger helper, cream cheese, sour cream, etc. Rarely would I pick up anything fresh or healthy. It just struck me as funny how I realize I have turned into a health-nut. Who'dathunk? Me? Healthy?

Speaking of food, I added my daily food log on the top right side of my blog. I found it on Roni's Weigh's website. Eat, Tweet, Post. It's really cool. I just tweet what I eat throughout the day, then go to her website to get a tally of the total points I've eaten for the day, then copy and paste the code into my blog and it formats it with the total at the bottom and everything. I absolutely LOVE Twittering so this one is right up my alley. I love it!

I also have a badge over to the right for the coolest challenge. It's on Fitago. It's a community trek across America. It starts in Daytona Beach, FL and ends in San Fransicso, CA. So all you do is log the miles you walk, run or bike on the Fitago website and the total mileage gets added to everyone else's totals and together we walk across America. How cools is that??!! I've always wanted to join a challenge like this. So this is perfect. Plus, it's getting me motivated to run again. I need anything to get me motivated. This one probably won't be a quick challenge, too, so it'll help me stick with it longer. You should check it out.

So here's to another day of staying within my points, drinking my water, eating my dairy and oils and vegetables and protein. I couldn't run because it was raining all day. But I'll definitely be back to run tomorrow. It's not supposed to rain tomorrow.

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8 comments:

Memoires of a Heroinhead said...

cara,

why are you trying to lose weight? You look quite thin in you profile picture??

Tena said...

I liked how Nicole said she's learned to love the woman she's become! That is so important.

I have never twittered but using it for this might be fun! Thanks for telling us about it!

MizFit said...

I love the idea of eat it & tweet it as well.

But I wonder if Id feel silly when I hit reply? :)
I have no clue who some of the people are who are following me!!

you?
which all makes me now realize I need a CARLA ACCT and a MIZ ACCOUNT :)

Trish said...

I totally agree focusing too much on that number CAN have a bad influence. SOmetimes weneed to let up a bit.

You have done such an awesome job and know you will continue to do so and make it to goal.

26/26 to 12!? THAT is awesome!

spunkysuzi said...

It is sooo true that the scale only shows you a small part of your overall success! And sometimes it doesn't even show that :(

jinxxxygirl said...

I think you got it right. Enjoy the moment. Enjoy where you are at in this new way of life. Its not a rat race to try to lose the weight. Its something thats gonna happen because your living a healthier more active life. Just.....'be'. Jinx!

Karyn said...

You're doing great, Cara! Good thoughts about focusing on the mirror!

Lake Mary WWLeader said...

You are looking great and should be proud of the you in the mirror. By focusing on the non-scale successes you may enjoy the weight-loss journey that much more. Keep up the great work!